Falling apart

What a l-o-u-s-y day -'-

Early in th morning , gt called t stand up at th parade ground by Mr S. -.- I mean , I wasn't doing anyth okey , I swear . Know what I was doing ? I was looking dwn , looking at my nails . Then suddenly hor , he walked past , pointed over here & said , " Th 4 girls over thr , stand " I jitao stunned can , & huh him back . But what else is thr I cld do ? Tsk . Stood up , & he started catching me fr my socks , hair , blahblah . Know what , fuck you bastard ! Pa jiao eh , nv do anyth also want come pin-point me , I'm v fed up lah bodoh @#*@&$ !!

Ltr on , aft sch , met dear & went hme tgt . Moodswings agn . Cheebye lah , everyth's going against me these days . Feel like crying fr no reason at all . Think I'm going crazy . I'm sucha crybaby . Encounter problem , all I know is t cry like thr's no tmrw . Fuckfuckfuck . Fuck everyth . Fuck all th things going against me . Fuck th stupid attitudes , fuck th stupid personalities .

Feeling terrible nw ; my eyes are sore from crying too much , & I'm freezing from th cold . I srsly need someone t talk t right nw . Yet everyone's dao-ing me . Everyone's busy w their own things . Everyone doesn't care .

Nah , it's alright . I don't blame you all .
'cuz Joyce's meant t be all alone anyw .