Dying in eternity

I know I've hurt you deeply fr saying those things t you . Like always , I realised it only aftwards . & it was alr too late t regret .. I know thr's no point saying all these right nw , 'cuz I know tt nth tt I say nw cld possibly reduce all th hurt & pain I've caused you . All of your hard work , & all th love & care you've given me didn't go unnoticed . I may nt say it out loud , but srsly , I rly appreciated all you've done fr me . They may be small , silly favours , but t me , they simple mean everyth . Nth cld compare t your hugs , your kisses , or even your smile . I was serious when I told you tt you're th only reason fr my every single smile . Knowing you was my blessing , you've given me th best memories anyone cld ever give .

Yet , all I've ever done was t throw tantrums at you .. Lose my temper over th smallest things , hurting you unknowingly . You may not say it , but I cld see th pain in your eyes . I'm sucha failure as a girlf , I nv knew hw t make you truly happy being w me . I'm so sorry ; if time cld turn back , I certainly wouldn't have done all those hurtful things t you , dear .

I said I'd cherish you , but I nv did .. I'd rather you scold or lecture me , instead of hiding your tears & giving in t me every single time . I admit tt many times , I was in th wrong , but my stubborn nature refused t allow me t apologize .. I'm sorry . Fr making you have t tolerate w my temper . Fr making you have t endure those lonely nights alone . Fr making you kneel dwn in front of a girl . Fr making you shed tears over me ..

I'm trying my best t chg fr you , my dear . You might nt be able t see th diff , but I've tried . I apologize fr disappointing you over & over agn . But one thing fr sure , I'll nv , ever hurt you w my words agn . I'd rather die than t see you suffering alone in silence . I'd do everyth , anyth just t make you happy agn . T make up fr all those hurt .

Though it's been only 39 days , my love fr you's stronger than anyth else . I've nv loved anyone as deeply as I love you . Th past 38 days have been my happiest days of my life , though thr's been times of up & dwn . I'll nv forget those promises you made t me , those places we walked past , holding hands tgt , those movies we watched tgt , & those beautiful memories you've given me . I'll keep them close t my heart , forever . You'll nv be replaced , like I promised . 'cuz you're th only guy I cld dream of being tgt w , fr th rest of my life .

I'm so sorry , Kevin .
Forgive me fr causing you so much hurt . I love you , v much ..
Goodbye , my love .