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I'm depressed .
No , depressed is an understatement . But I don't kno what else I can use t describe hw I'm feeling right nw ..

Th dream was so real . So vivid , so heartbreaking .
What's happening t me ! I want t smile . I want t be happy . I want t laugh ):

I need you so much .
I can't even bear th thought of ever losing you ..
I hate myself fr being so weak , fr being sucha crybaby .
But tt's just hw I am . I can't stand on my own .
I need you by my side , here w me .
Th problem doesn't lie w you , it lies w me .
It's nt tt I lack trust in you , I just get this sinking feeling
everytime tt makes me feel like I'm gna lose you one day .
I've been out of love many times bfr this ,
but this's th first time I'm feeling so helpless & lost .
I don't kno what t do ..