Pained

算了啦算了啦 !
我不知道 , 什么也不知道 !
我什么也不要想了 , 什么都不想要了 (!!!!!)




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你知道你对我说的那些话 , 让我多么心痛吗 ? .

I dno hw t describe this feeling I'm having right nw . I can't possibly be disappointed in you ; when I'm a disappointment myself . I kno I've broken my promise , I wasn't completely honest in you . But did you understand why I did tt ? Why I hid th truth from you ? 'cuz I didn't want you t get hurt 'cuz of me . I love you too much , way too much . I cldn't bear t see you get hurt , I wldn't kno what t do w/o you . I was afraid of losing you , you kno ? . I kno I was stupid t give in t his threat , but tt's all 'cuz I love you . Yet you said those hurtful words t me , do you kno hw I felt right at tt moment ? Th person I love th most is saying th most painful words t me . I wished I cld just die right thr & forget abt everyth . I kno , you cld've said all those things due t you being angry or upset , I kno you may nt have meant them , but still ,
you've rly hurt me this time .